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Interesting stuff to read [30 Jan 2010|04:51pm] http://www.translatedmemories.com/ --> Some book from silent hill http://silenthill.wikia.com/wiki/Silent_Hill_Wiki --> Silent hill characters http://ruleofrosemysteries.com/ --> AWESOME page of Rule of Rose mysteries. http://www.cinemassacre.com/new/index.php --> cinemassacre :D http://www.yog-sothoth.com/modules.php?name=Forums&file=viewtopic&t=9146 --> The Complete CTHUVIAN / ENGLISH DICTIONARY http://allnurses.com/general-nursing-discussion/whats-your-best-108202.html --> nurse horror stories. post comment

last minute [24 Dec 2006|07:34pm] (stuff that's unorganized but I need to put down somewhere so I won't loose it while changing comps) http://www.dragonfable.com/default.asp http://www.eyezmaze.com/tip/tip_e.html http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paranoia_(game) http://konung.1c.ru/eng/monsters.htm http://www.sanpetersburgo.com/idiomam.htm http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1302320/1/ http://community.livejournal.com/hyugacest/229379.html#cutid1 http://writteninthestars.i8.com/fanfiction.htm http://writteninthestars.i8.com/colortut.htm http://cartoon.adultfanfiction.net/story.php?no=544191184 http://www.jastusa.com/webcomic/index.php?page=1&lang= http://community.livejournal.com/shika_temari/?skip=176 http://anime.adultfanfiction.net/story.php?no=9990 http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2804619/30/ http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2847752/1/ http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2686623/25/ http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2915973/1/ http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3174357/1/ hhttp://www.animeindepth.com/series.php?series=1&page=12&mode=page1835/1/ http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1173841/1/ http://www.fanfiction.net/s/632192/5/ http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/42554235/ http://www.smackjeeves.com/ http://www.matias-tv.com.ar/index.php?seccion=telechubbis http://community.livejournal.com/shika_temari/101127.html#cutid1 http://snow-angels.net/sk-media/hetdoujin.html http://snow-angels.net/sk-media/yaoidoujin.html http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3d8VXGaGA6o http://www.aerisdies.com/ ++++++++++++ http://www.adultfanfiction.net/html-index.php http://www.fanfiction.net/ http://www.deviantart.com/ https://login.yahoo.com/config/login_verify2?&.src=ym http://panur-links.livejournal.com/ http://yuta.deadjournal.com/ http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/club/1343/ http://nanas-journal.livejournal.com/ +++++++++++++ http://landel-info.livejournal.com/19138.html http://community.livejournal.com/landels_call/5798.html http://landel-info.livejournal.com/16554.html#cutid1 http://landel-info.livejournal.com/16717.html?mode=reply http://landel-info.livejournal.com/18617.html#cutid1 http://landel-info.livejournal.com/16259.html?mode=reply http://landel-info.livejournal.com/22096.html#cutid1 http://landel-info.livejournal.com/20090.html http://hv-textbook.livejournal.com/ http://landel-info.livejournal.com/2157.html#cutid1 http://landel-info.livejournal.com/20379.html#cutid1 http://hv-textbook.livejournal.com/587.html http://landel-oddity.livejournal.com/ http://hv-textbook.livejournal.com/360.html +++++++++++++++ http://community.livejournal.com/russellxed/2005/12/25/ http://www.agonyagogo.com/writings.html http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/334707 +++++++++++++++ http://www.geocities.com/haos_soul/hao.html http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2044213/1/ http://www.geocities.com/tarot_le_morte/main.html http://www.geocities.com/haos_soul/quotes.html http://www.animegalleries.net/img/60034 http://www.shaman-soul.com/galeria/index.php?&f=Manga http://groups.msn.com/HaoAsakuraelmaspodeosodelosAsakuras/pictures?Page=1 http://www.youkaimura.org/shikigami.htm http://communities.ninemsn.net.au/HGShaman/aliados.msnw http://www.answers.com/topic/elfen-lied http://www.animeindepth.com/series.php?series=1&page=12&mode=page http://www.shaman-soul.com/galeria/index.php?list=Wallpapers http://beta.communities.fr.msn.com/HGShaman/mattimatisse.msnw?Page=1 post comment

Coolest animations [26 Jul 2005|08:56pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | "mein herz brennt", Ramstein ] *HORROR/MORBID* http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/243164 --> A beautifully disturbing story about a girl and a shadow... http://www.animationarcade.com/music/losdiassindias.html --> One of my favourite mute stories, with an amazing depth. http://www.escalofrio.com/n/Animaciones_y_PPS/God_Hates_a_Coward/God_Hates_a_Coward.php --> if I'm not mistaken, this is but another master artwork by the same creators of "Los dias sin dias" http://www.escalofrio.com/n/Animaciones_y_PPS/Miedo_sin_Fin/Miedo_sin_Fin.php --> This is one of the best Horror flashes on existence. http://www.biteycastle.com/taken.htm --> ...Holy fuck, this made me jump… O_o http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/218854 --> Creepy valentines animation by the author of "Salad fingers" http://www.seriesflash.com/n/SERIES_DE_TERROR/Emilie/Emilie.php --> "Flowers" song, a lovely video about a little girl, set in a NightMare Before X-mas type of universe. *GENERAL* http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/164193 --> Excellent take at a FF parody, with amazing voice-overs, color and story. http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/239473 --> Salivate at the amazing way Mk and SF characters fight… seriously, you can’t believe such coordination comes from different games! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/130021 --> Scorpion PWNZ all.... (My fav MK character!) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PrZQIayUnbA --> The Omega Cloud Kawaii song! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rzbwvaZR3Wk --> Hot Russians showing us what parkeur is about! *HUMOR* http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view.php?id=91284 --> Hilarious father/son talk between Vader and Luke http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view.php?id=59512 --> "eternal darkness" take on the PPG, brilliantly done! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/74216 --> I AM RESIDENT EVIL! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/23030 --> Yeah, who hasn’t played this game and thought the guys were a bit… funny? http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/54237 --> This is seriously one of the best parodies of PONG I’ve ever seen. http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/226187 --> One of the best RE parodies existing, and now that it has subtitles, it’s even better! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/276377 --> When teacher says "No cell phone in class", she means it... http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/227808 --> “American idol” take on the internet-wide known flash “Numa dance” http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/11940 --> ALL YOR BASE R BLONG 2 US http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/158218 --> best “Matrix” parody ever to be conceived. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pnCx7dL2L_Y&search=horror --> All Villains wish you a happy holiday! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KdCEACX5fuw --> shake that thong, hippo! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/323222 --> One of the most disturbing animations you'll ever see! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xeo_46xnJS0 --> Funny kittens. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-dR8SwOor8&mode=related&search= --> Funny puppies. *MUSIC* http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/274986 --> S.O.A.D's music flash, "Cigaro" http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/271066 --> AWW! Cutesy fast forward take on “Dragostea din tei” http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/fatbabe.php --> if you can stand the horridly slow downloading and the background music without going mad, the song is worth it. http://www.flashplayer.com/music/angrywhiteboypolka.html --> Angry white boy polka, great music video parodying many known songs! http://www.flashplayer.com/music/vencelbros-thestalker.html --> the stalker song! http://www.escalofrio.com/n/Animaciones_y_PPS/Hazselo_Suavemente/Hazselo_Suavemente.php --> I'm gonna fuck you gently, babe! (Not for children!) http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/maiyahi.php --> Another Numa parody! http://www.rathergood.com/hippo/ --> Hippo girl, one of my favourites. http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/74104 --> How could they do this to the Chipmunks...? (it's great) http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/285267 --> It's the ultimate showdown of ultimate destiny! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQiyRJAcAAI --> Pucca music video that MTV passed! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/366814 --> CC city animations are awesome... and this is their best so far. http://www.hongfire.com/cg/data/25/caramelldansen.swf --> Popotan caramelldansen! *GROSS* http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/253287 --> This has to be the most *disgusting* animation ever... O_O http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view.php?id=23683 --> ... "interesting" take on a PPG parody, with gay powder-puff boys and ...ugh, just watch it! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/83411 --> Seriously Neo... what were you thinking? http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/44126 --> Oh... this is just WRONG.... poor Guybrush… (remember to ask the guy about Loom!) *AMV* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9kbseG_3j6E&search=fullmetal%20alchemist --> "anything", for all lovers of Greed and Envy on FMA http://media.putfile.com/I-Touch-Myself41 --> "I touch myself" anime video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=scG9KLsyz0k&search=amv --> VERY well done AMV with some of the most famous anime Vampires. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nyZk6h76QY --> REAL NINJA'S! Hilarious Naruto AMV ^__^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?t=t&page=3&feature=Favorites&f=b&v=S0Vfa2kjr4E --> Chobits take on the uses of internet... (porn, porn PORN!) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2SgY0Dn7GQ&search=Utena --> UtenaxAnthi dance scene from the movie....shooo beyoooteful! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWN04ADkgck --> Azumanga DIE-oh! (aaaawesome) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ddt8g9kxgp0&search=Utena --> Oh Akio....You touch my Tra-la-la! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fULDDR43pso&search=evangelion --> "Engel" Evangelion video...by far, one of the bests I've seen. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMzHxVmZ-SI --> Roy once was the King of Spain… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MktjrS0t3o --> Elvis VS. Anime!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zfwSTNacQM --> Armstrong, aka Fma's Captain Planet! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VzVT0n7jXbk&search=mamboleo --> Mamboleo (Aokakesu Remix);) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZN1-0Qw0IMs --> I have no idea where this Eva parody came from, but it's AMAZING. It’s the opening played by REAL LIFE people! *PIANO RENDITIONS* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z62t_uGdAwY --> Elfen lied, “Lilium” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4otn9BVUYe8 --> NOIR, “Melody Salva Nos” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_u8BwxWNTig --> DDR, “Butterfly” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xK69wUtbQ34 --> Chrono Cross, “Scars of Time” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wryNf-Ai-aw --> Evangelion, “Cruel Angel’s thesis” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGUAWi9qVp8 --> James Blunt, “You are beautiful” *SERIES* http://www.mult.ee/lenore3.shtml --> Here you can get the "Leonore" series downloaded, but beware... files be HUGE. http://www.biteycastle.com/ --> Introducing the ever-amazing forest of Brakenwood, and especially one of it’s inhabitants, Bitey, aka: evil SOB causing trouble where he goes. http://www.illwillpress.com/ --> I'llwillpress... I actually don't like Foamy, but the British squirrel and Pillz-e won me over http://www.newgrounds.com/collection/neuroticallyyours.html --> For Neurotically yours fans, here you have ALL the Foamy flashes done till this day! Even the old ones you can’t get at Ilwillpress! http://www.angryalien.com/ -->one of the best series in the world.... "*** re-enacted by bunnies" ! http://www.locoarts.com.ar/main.htm ---> The adventures of Alejo and Valentina (warning for those who don’t understand Argentinean slang, won’t get a flying f*** of what they say here.) http://www.matazone.co.uk/theotherside.html --> The Other Side, a collection of free-to-view animations with a twisted sense of humour by Mata! http://www.newgrounds.com/collection/madness.html --> Madness most violent flash I’ve seen… and I’ve seen LOTS of flashes, none are nearly as good as this one. http://www.newgrounds.com/collection/xiaoxiao.html --> XiaXiao, something like the Guru of all stick flashes http://www.matias-tv.com.ar/index.php?seccion=telechubbis --> TEH TELECHUBBIES! Secured crack for anyone with a decent grasp or Spanish (ARGENTINEAN SLANG AT FULL!) Sambakza Love story between a cat and a Bunny, with the amazing music of Sambakza! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/161181 --> #1 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/224148 --> #2 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/177346 --> #3 (you can see human version of Cat and Bunny!) Rise of the Mushroom Kingdom A dark Mario Bros story…. http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/113889 --> #1 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/124155 --> #2 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/184865 --> #3 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/224974 --> #4 8-bit theater For fans of 8-bit theatre, here comes the animated version of the comic! http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/72945 --> #1 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/79149 --> #2 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/106049 --> #3 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/198225 --> #4 http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/285899 --> #5 post comment

Naruto recomended fanfics [28 Jun 2005|02:12am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | "Mentiras", la ley ] Yeah, what the title say.... practically all of them are Yaoi or going that way so...be warned! LONG FICS Longer fics. Some one-chapter thing, but long enough. Title: For the love of the Hat! Author: Konpeitou Language: English Summary: Naruto, Gaara, and the Kazekage hat. Naruto is sent to Suna Gakure and gets to spend time with the Kazekage. GaaNaru Status: complete Genre: general/romance Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: hot kissing Best point: hot kissing ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2428302/1/ ) Title: Not Heaven Author: Anria Lalumin Language: English Summary: Naruto is sent on a mission to the Hidden Sand. There, he meets Gaara once more. (Spoilers for up to manga chapter 246; goes AU after that.) Genre: Romance/Drama Status. complete Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: spoilers, I think. Best point: The ending. Gaara being so vulnerable. (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2265445/1/ ) Title: Stuck in the Middle with You Author: cityneko Language: English Summary: Everyone needs a family & Tsunade is very good at family planning. Gaara had already found his mother in Iruka. Naruto and Sasuke will too - they just don't know it yet. Can Kakashi be the father they never had? You must be joking. Genre: General/Humor Pairings: hints at Kakashi/Iruka Warnings: Gaara’s obsessive consuming of poisonous mushrooms and raw meat. Best point: Iruka becomes Naruto, Sasuke and Gaara’s mother! (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1715980/1/ ) Title: The Cricket Club Author: Sagi-chan Language: English Summary: [AU] Naturally, being a high school student is going to suck - but when you're a reincarnated Kitsune-demon with a fan club composed wholly of crickets... it's going to suck a whole lot more. [Yaoi] [GaaraNaru] [Stupidity] [Chapter 14] Status: incomplete Genre: romance/comedy Pairings: Naruto/Gaara, Sasuke/Neji, Shikamaru/Temari Warnings: AU Best point: So friggin funny! ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1907652/1/ ) Title: Keys to Diplomacy Author: Letta Language: English Summary: Naruto enjoys the perks of being Hokage when the Kazekage visits for a diplomatic meeting. Naru/Gaara Yaoi Status: complete Genre: smut/general Pairings: Naru/Gaara Warnings: PR0N! Best point: Naru/Gaara sex. ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544182208 ) Title: Deseos Author: Meiko Akiyama Language: Spanish Summary: Naruto travels to the hidden Sand village alter finding out just who the new Kazekage is. Spoilers for chapter 247 of the manga. Shounen-ai Gaara/Naru Status: complete Genre: Drama/Romance Pairings: Naru/Gaara Warnings: I’m not sure if they had sex or not. Best point: Sweetness, I guess. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2271731/1/ ) Title: Get Nasty Author: DeeZ Language: Spanish Summary: GaaNaru in Spanish. When Naruto invites Gaara to his house, speaking about the Akatsuki will lead to some other thing much more `powerful for both seals. Sex (I’m a sick woman, sorry) and romance. Status: incomplete Genre: General/Drama Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: sex, not really explicit. Seme Gaara. Best point: Gaara kidnaps Naru and takes him to Sand! ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2364889/1/ ) Title: Love will conquer pain Author: coriander Language: English Summary: Gaara/Naru. Gaara is given to the hidden village of leaf as a peace offering. The Hokage asks Naruto to take him in as a roommate. Naruto becomes the one who will ease Gaara's pain. Shounen-Ai Status: incomplete Genre: Romance/General Pairings: Gaara/Naru. One-sided Sasu/Naru Warnings: Gaara is OOC. I think. Best point: Clingy, talkative red panda. (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2094432/1/ ) Title: Forests in the Desert Sand Author: cneko2 Language: English Summary: Prequel and Gaara side story to Family of Demons: Gaara leaves to look for a certain blonde ninja. Warning: GaaNaru. Lots. Completed. Status: completed Genre: General/Drama Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: OC in the form of Naruto’s daughter. Actually, she’s a pretty nice character. Best point: Gaara reassuring himself his mind is not always in the gutter. Even if it is. (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1824731/1/ ) Title: http: The Child In Me Author: shi-chan Language: English Summary: YAOI (YonIru, GaaIru, KakaIru) - A child's love is not something to be ignored or made fun off. Iruka found that out the hard way. And he's going to do everything for other's not to feel what he did. Even if it means standing alone. Status: complete, I think…. Only the epilogue, missing Genre: Drama/Angst Pairings: Gaara/Genma, slight Gaara/Iruka, implied Yondaime/Iruka Warnings: heart-wrenching Gaara angst. Best point: Gaara being so fucking sweet. Iruka being the greatest teacher EVAH. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2072235/1/ ) Title: Being Boys Author: velutlunas Language: English Summary: Kiba pushes too hard and even Shino can break. Lemon,Yaoi Status: completed-sadly, it’s my favorite Genre: romance/angst/pr0n Pairings: Shino/Kiba Warnings: Shino/Kiba pr0n Best point: I love the characters uh… characterization. And the Shino/Kiba pr0n. ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544185645 ) Title: Naruto 'kage Drabble Author: kizuko Language: English Summary: Random future 'kage drabble, featuring Hokage! Naruto and Kazekage! Gaara. (Although curiously they are never mentioned by name...) Special appearance by Desk-san!! SPOILERS for Chapters 247 and up of the manga!!! Status: complete Genre: general/romance Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: other than implied…*reconfirmed alliances*? Best point: that I love this writer… same one that wrote “family of demons” ( http://www.livejournal.com/users/kizuko/4332.html#cutid1 ) Title: Mask of Deception Author: Kisu Language: English Summary: Naruto loses his memory and becomes an ANBU to protect Gaara. That is the only purpose he lives for. But will his stay in Konoha trigger memories that have been locked away? NaruGaara SasuSaku Chapter 7 Status: incomplete –BUG HER SO SHE FINISHES- Genre: Tragedy/Angst Pairings: Gaara/Naru, Sasu/Saku Warnings: slight OOC-ness, but of the good, credible kind. Best point: Gaara/Naru scenes. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1753532/8/ ) Title: Innocent Sins Author: Sekra Language: English Summary: [shounen-ai, SasuNaru, GaaNaru] Sasuke is the new kid, and everyone wants his attention. Everyone that is, but Naruto. The only problem is, Naruto is the only one Sasuke wants attention from. With Demon hunters and Gaara in the way, will he ever get it? Status: on hold…bug her to continue…. Genre: Romance/Drama Pairings: SasuNaru, GaaNaru Warnings: bloody fights Best point: Gaara, as usual ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1931712/1/ ) Title: Before, Then, Now Author: Pesha Language: English Summary: Shino/Kiba fiction dedicated to Meagn (Velutlunas) for her birthday. It's a study in the evolution of their relationship. Smut with a concept. *boggles* M/M,Yaoi,Anal Status: complete Genre: smut/drama Pairings: Shino/Kiba Warnings: pr0n Best point: well, it’s Shino/Kiba… what can be better? ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=25808 ) Title: Why is it Hard? Author: dysturbation Language: English Summary: --Epilogue added-- Gaara has problems, Kankuro tries to help. [Implied Kankuro/Kiba and Gaara/Naruto, Solo] Status: complete Genre: Smut/humor Pairings: stuff about Kiba/Kankuro and one-sides Gaara/Naru Warnings: masturbation talk. Best point: Kankuro having to explain Gaara how to…put it down. ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544185940 ) Title: How We Work Author: Kyuunoki Language: English Summary: Kiba reflects on his relationship with Shino. One-shot. Shonen-Ai Status: complete Genre: general/romance Pairings: Shino/Kiba Warnings: shonen ai Best point: Kiba’s description of how the Aburame clan works, quite real, if you ask me. ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544182978 ) Title: Blindsided Author: nescione Language: English Summary: Three years after Sasuke leaves, Tsunade receives a message from the Sound that may change the futures of the Leaf, Sand, and Sound. Eventual Naru/Gaara, Naru/Sasu/Gaara. Yaoi, Shounen-Ai Status: incomplete, sadly Genre: general Pairings: Gaara/Naru, Sasu/Naru/Gaara Warnings: none Best point: the plot is real good…. ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544180188) Title: Defined Warmth Author: SakataRiHoujun Language: English Summary: The desperate quest of a lone San-nin for something he can't begin to describe. -NaruGaa- M/M,Lime,Yaoi,Shonen-Ai Status: complete Genre: poetic/drama/smut Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: poetic citrus, angst, sap Best point: Gaara’s POV ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=36855 ) Title: Wishing On Author: SakataRiHoujun Language: English Summary: A special wish is made on Tanabata with surprising results. GaaNaru M/M,Lemon,Yaoi,WAFF,Oral Status: complete Genre: smut/romance Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: Uh… Gaara’s the Kazekage? Is that a spoiler? Best point: Gaara tastes good. And makes freaky wishes. ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544181194 ) Title: Hell is for Neji Author: Mucktron Language: English Summary: After his Battle with the Sound Nin, Neji recovers in the hospital with the rest of his team there to help him get better. Pray for Neji. Status: complete Genre: One-shot, humor Pairings: none Warnings: Neji contemplates suicide as he is constantly “abused” by his teammates Best point: Neji’s numerousl descriptions of how he plans to commit suicide. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1644185/1/ ) Title: water displacement Author: two_if_by_sea Language: English Summary: Gaara’s analysis of the smells, both of his home and Naruto. Status: complete Genre: general/drama Pairings: hinted Gaara/Naru Warnings: none Best point: the smells narrative. ( http://www.livejournal.com/users/two_if_by_sea/7500.html#cutid1 ) Title: Spring Fever Author: maldoror_gw Language: English Summary: My first evah Naruto fanfic posted. This is just a lil' piece of humor, not to be taken too seriously. A way of getting my feet wet in the world of Shinobi. Situated a year or so after the events in the anime (keep in mind I've only seen up about 40 episodes to date, so inexactitudes regarding the end of the series may abound. Call it an AU if you're a purist.) Status: complete Genre: humor/romance? Pairings: Iruka/Kakashi Warnings: Iruka has a mean streak we didn’t know of…a very fun, one (not what you are thinking of, pervs!) Best point: Iruka is not the shy, sweet, innocent goody in usual fanfiction! And he STAYS IC, somehow! ( http://www.livejournal.com/users/maldoror_gw/713.html#cutid1 ) Title: The Moments Before Sleep Author: Lovecraft Language: English Summary: Naruto and Sasuke have their issues. Lots of issues. Vast amounts of issues, even. SasuNaru, SasuSaku, GaaNaru - This is an AU. Status: incomplete, I think. Genre: Angst/Drama Pairings: Sasu/Naru, Sasu/Saku, Gaara/Naru Warnings: abused Naru. Best point: Gaara, as usual…. "I think I'm going to kill Uchiha and feed him to mother." ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2042551/1/ ) Title: Desert Storm Author: Keruri1 Language: English Summary: GaaNaru. When Naruto visits Sunakagure, he brings storms with him. Status: complete Genre: Romance/General Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: Weirdness. Best point: Weirdness of the good kind. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2316550/1/ ) Title: Welcome to Existence Author: rasinah Language: English Summary: [Sand siblings gen, slight hints of GaaNaru, TemaShika] He wanted to feel it once more, the warm rush of that long-forgotten emotion, knowing that this time round, the basis for it was genuine. Status: complete Genre: general Pairings: none (hints at Gaara/Naru, Shikamaru/Temari ) Warnings: sweet siblings love Best point: Gaara. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2343342/1/ ) Title: A Different Perspective Author: Book of Changes Language: English Summary: ((AU, KakaIru)) Kakashi prepared himself for the worst when he was saddled with the Kyuubi no gaki, a.k.a. Naruto. He did not, however, expect this. Status: incomplete Genre: General/Humor Pairings: Kaka/Iru, Iru/ Warnings: Iruka will BURN YOU DOWN WITH HIS CUTENESS!!! Best point: I think it’s a parody at how much authoresses insist in Iruka being a cutie… (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2342935/1/ ) Title: Almost Normal Author: the baka rangers Language: English Summary: Drabble. Sometimes Gaara is almost normal. But only when the blond boy is around. GaaraNaru. Status: complete Genre: General/Angst Pairings:Gaara/Naru Warnings: brilliant description in short sentences. Best point: It’s so short and… I don’t know how to say it… amazing? New? (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2461612/1/ ) Title: Dreaming Wide Awake Author: Sagi-chan Language: English Summary: Fantasies for Gaara don't exist and can't happen – but maybe with Naruto around, they can. [fluff] [one-shot] [GaaraNaru] [challange response] Status: complete Genre: General/romance Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: none, really… AU, perhaps, as Gaara and Naru escaped…. Best point: Love, simple as that. (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2027898/1/ ) Title: The Kakashi Mission Author: JBMcDragon Language: English Summary: When the Hokage asks Iruka to keep an eye on Kakashi, he finds that befriending the ninja is more difficult than he expected. Or maybe it's too easy. He's still not sure. [see ff.net for the R version.] M/M,Yaoi Status: incomplete Genre: angst/drama/humor Pairings: Iruka/kakashi, minor Kurenai/Asuma and past Iruka/Mizuki an Kakashi/his tem leader at Anbu. Warnings: male/male stuff. Kakashi’s several traumas. So far, implied sex stuff. Best point: This is a very different intake on the character of Kakashi, and I can only think of one word to describe it: Brilliant. The story is mature, well written and acceptably IC. You get depth into the past of the characters and still keep them faithful to what we know from the show. ( http://www.adultfanfiction.net/aff/story.php?no=544200073 ) Title: A Break in the Routine Author: Maldoror Language: English Summary: COMPLETE. For Kakashi, routine meant no missions and no-one actively trying to kill him. Routine was good. Then Gai just had to ruin it with a new challenge, one that Kakashi was not expecting at all. Kakashi/Gai M/M Status: complete Genre: Humour, minor angst, romance (sort of...more of a sex-with-feelings-as-bonus) Pairings: Eventual Kakashi/Gai, brief mentions of various other pairings. Warnings: Gai/Kakashi, might make some shudder Best point: I never really liked this pair, but it’s o well written! ( http://www.adultfanfiction.net/aff/story.php?no=544202014 ) Title: Naruto World Facts of Life Author: Sadieko Language: English Summary: A series of vingettes taking all the Naruto fic cliches and turning them on their heads. (The first one twitched me, but trust me on this. If it twitches you, keep reading anyway.) Status: complete Genre: vignettes Pairings: many Warnings: you’re most likely not going to like what the vignettes say. Best point: I don’t know… I just like it. ( http://www.tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/teameight.html ) ONESHOTS Fics that are drabbles, oneshots, or simply short. Title: Something More Author: tatsumaki Language: English Summary: The sand gets into everything. So does Naruto. Gaara knows this. Oneshot, shounen ai, one-sided GaaNaru. Status: complete Genre: Romance Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: none Best point: Gaara’s introspection about sand and Naru. The ending. (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1940620/1/ ) Title: Bleak Author: Strawberry Goo Language: English Summary: [Gaara/Naru, Sasu/Naru] Gaara feels that he has been betrayed by a certain blonde genin and has become worse than ever. How does he deal with the pain that has taken over his life? Status: complete Genre: Angst/Drama/Romance Pairings: Gaara/sand village woman. One-sided Gaara/Naruto. Warnings: Gaara abuses a girl. Mentions trying to abuse Naruto. Best point: creepy Gaara. (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1895109/1/ ) Title: The Kitsune's Kitten Author: Ho-sama Language: English Summary: Yaoi. Naru/Gaara. AU. Living in the city, these two boys have found each other. Gaara comes to Naruto every night, purring and begging for his love. A short, sweet, and sensual story. [One-shot] Status: complete Genre: Romance Pairings: Gaara/Naruto Warnings: AU, Uke Gaara. Best point: I love the description of just how dangerous Gaara is. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2293706/1/ ) Title: And Infinity Author: Kokuei no Onchuu Language: English Summary: GaaNaru, Ebony's birthday present. Gaara ponders: there's so little time in this world. Why not make it interesting? Status: complete Genre: Romance Pairings: Naru/Gaara Warnings: none. Best point: Gaara’s take on Shukaku’s insane words and relate them to Naruto. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2401115/1/ ) Title: Late Night Musings Author: Ho-sama Language: English Summary: Yaoi. Naru/Gaara. Naruto thinks about the interesting relationship he has with Gaara. [One-shot] Status: complete Genre: Romance/General/angst Pairings: Gaara/Naru Warnings: Naru angst Best point: Gaara/Naru, in general. The open ending. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2282253/1/ ) Title: The Lost Boys Author: cneko2 Language: English Summary: There is darkness and light. And sometimes there can even be darkness inside of light. NaruGaa ficlet. (and yes, you read that right) Status: completed Genre: darkfic Pairings: Gaara/Naruto Warnings: Darkfic. Best point: Astounding writing. (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2078110/1/ ) Title: Innuendoes Author: shamaim Language: English Summary: A little remembrance Gaara does in five thirty in the morning because it’s cold outside. M/M,Lime Status: complete Genre: smut/angst Pairings:Gaara/Naru Warnings: Gaara is consensually raped, if that makes any sense… Best point: Gaara loves it ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544170720 ) Title: Kiba, or the Lack of a Good Title Author: Hey-Diddle-Diddle Language: English Summary: Kiba can smell everything. Status: complete Genre: drama Pairings: none or several, depending. Warnings: Kiba angst. Disturbing writing. Best point: I love short pics that give the creeps. Konoha’s secrets… ( http://tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/kiba.html ) Title: Power Author: JBMcDragon Language: English Summary: A very short story about Hinata and the different types of power people can wield. Status: complete Genre: general Pairings: none (maybe barely hinted KibaxHinataxShino) Warnings: none Best point: it’s short, it’s good and it has Hinata there. ( http://tentative.net/JBMcDragon/library/dojo/power.html ) Title: Little Gifts Author: Sadieko Language: English Summary: Kiba has a birthday present for Hinata. If he can work up the courage to give it to her. Status: complete Genre: general/romance Pairings: Kiba/Hinata Warnings: none Best point: quite IC-ness? ( http://www.tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/littlegifts.html ) Title: Dear Mr. Write Author: Hey-Diddle-Diddle Language: English Summary: Kakashi and Iruka's relationship, summed up in notes and letters. Status: complete Genre: humor/general Pairings: Kakashi/Iruka Warnings: not story… conversation media little messages Best point: Makes me so happy, and easy lecture! ( http://www.tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/dearmrwrite.html ) Title: Goodbye, Mr. Write Author: Hey-Diddle-Diddle Language: English Summary: An alternate ending to Dear Mr. Write. Status: complete Genre: drama/angst Pairings: Kakashi/Iruka Warnings: If you don’t want all the happiness of the previous go bye bye, don’t read. Best point: God, I’m a sucker for this kind of stories… ( http://www.tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/goodbyemrwrite.html ) Title: Kakashi's Mantras Author: Hey-Diddle-Diddle Language: English Summary: Sometimes, a mantra is all you have left. Status: complete Genre: angst Pairings: Kakashi/Iruka Warnings: angsting, character death. Best point: aaangst ( http://www.tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/kakashismantras.html ) Title: Eleven Kisses Author: Hey-Diddle-Diddle Language: English Summary: Eleven notable kisses in Kakashi and Iruka's relationship. Status: complete Genre: romance/angst Pairings: kakashi/Iruka Warnings: character death Best point: So short, yet can make you cry ( http://www.tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/elevenkisses.html ) Title: Don't Tell Author: Hey-Diddle-Diddle Language: English Summary: A very creepy little story about child abuse. Status: complete Genre: drama Pairings: OC/Iruka, Iruka/Sasuke Warnings: child molestation of some sort Best point: gave me the creeps ( http://www.tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/donttell.html ) Title: Standing Author: Hey Diddle Diddle Language: English Summary: Hinata can stand because Neji hates Status: complete Genre: angst Pairings: creepy Hinata/Neji Warnings: creepy Hinata’s toughts Best point: a new take into Hinata’s reason for bravery against her cousin. ( http://www.tentative.net/JBMcDragon/Hidden_Village/standing.html ) post comment

Sou/Mi fanfiction [26 May 2005|08:01pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Dunce, Voltaire ] More fanfiction! I'm going to start reviewing some of my favorite Soujiro/Misao (my favorite pairing in Ruroni Kenshin, and don't start with it not being canon!) Title: Crimson Skies Author: chibi-angel3 Language: English Summary: COMPLETED! Open your eyes... open your mind... and open your heart to see that you don't have to look far to find your true love. A Soujiro/Misao fic. READ AND REVIEW! Status: complete Genre: Romance/Drama Pairings: Sou/Mi Warnings: none Best point: well, it’s my second favorite… (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/850927/1/ ) Title: Mezameteyuku Tamashii :: Awakening Spirits Author: Phoe-chan Language: English Summary: Soujiro is struggling to find the answers to his journey. Misao has left the Aoiya to 'discover herself'. When the two meet up they learn what life is all about and much more... Soujiro/Misao. [Complete] Status: complete Genre: Romance/Action/Adventure Pairings: Sou/Mi Warnings: some Aoshi bashing. Misao can keep up with him on fight. Best point: Misao’s training. It’s my FAVORITE fic of the Sou/Mi ones… (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1121864/1/ ) Title: Winter mornings Author: anithene Language: English Summary: Sequel to Winter evenings. A winter morning begins a bright new day, leading to bright new futures. SouMi. Status: complete Genre: General/Fluff Pairings: Sou/Mi Warnings: AU… all of them, now that I think about it. Best point: Sou/Mi fluff (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2262235/1/ ) Title: For You Author: Akisukie Hashimoto Language: English Summary: He was one lad who needed somebody until she came and filled the gap in his heart that has been empty for years. They were already happy in each other's company when one man destroyed it and took her away from him... A Sou/Mi fanfiction... R&R Status: incomplete Genre: Romance/Drama Pairings: Sou/Mi Warnings: AU, childhood meetings. Best point: chibi Sou and Mi. (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1947164/1/ ) Title: Innocence Author: selene4 Language: English Summary: He's been living in his late father's shadow, she's worked her whole life just to make ends meet. That's real life. The two of them finding one another? That's just magical -. Status: incomplete Genre: Drama/Romance Pairings: Sou/Mi Warnings: AU, for sure. Misao being a stripper, and having a girl of her own. Best point: the story itself. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1440010/1/ ) Title: Under The Circumstances Author: selene4 Language: English Summary: After an incident in Kyoto, Misao seeks refuge with her second family in Tokyo, however, two ghosts from her past are headed there as well. What will take place as these three fates intertwine under new circumstances? ::complete:: Status: complete Genre: Romance/Drama Pairings: Sou/Mi Warnings: slightly confusing. Best point: plotline, definetly. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1070971/1/ ) post comment

Random favourite Fanfics [24 Apr 2005|12:48am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | my very own mixes of music ] Well... haven't written here in a very long while... Dunno why, i f***ing love this place. Being as it is that my computer is terribly prone to forget my links, i've decided the best way to keep them save is letting them in a place i know it won't be delated... My beloved deadjournal. SO! i will now go and post some of my favorite stories here.... Series: DNAngel Title: Sugar and Cream Author: Unknown Language: English Summary: Satoshi doesn’t go to class, Daisuke is asked to bring him homework, they talk about sweetness and Sato jumps Dai :P Status: complete Genre: yaoi, shounen-ai, I wouldn’t really call it lemon… more like a strong lime Pairings: Satoshi/Daisuke Warnings: somewhat lemonish, slightly AU (no Krad, but there’s no other way for them to be able to do…. “things” without ending with one less red-head in the world) Best point: It bothers me a little the fact they are too young to be engaging in anything more than groping and maybe hand jobs, but it’s a nice thing to read. ( http://kaitou.net/fandom/sugarcream.html ) Series: DNAngel Title: Snowball's Chance Author: Suppi-chan Language: English Summary: SatDai Fluffy Waff Sop Etc. =P Daisuke needs to learn to stop taking dares from Dark. Status: complete Genre: General/Romance Pairings: Satoshi/Daisuke Warnings: shounen-ainess Best point: toffee butter… muehehe (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/221783/1/ ) Series: DNAngel Title: Purity Author: Tiamat's Child Language: English Summary: Satoshi contemplates Daisuke and gets very strange. Companion to 'Wishes' Status: Complete Genre: Angst/Romance Pairings: Satoshi/Daisuke Warnings: one sided shounen-ainess Best point: beautifully written (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/841387/1/ ) Series: DNAngel Title: Submerged Author: Suppi-chan Language: English Summary: Someone spikes the punch. Satoshi drinks it. Daisuke helps him back to his apartment. Shounen ai ensues. Status: Complete Genre: Romance/Humor Pairings: Satoshi/Daisuke Warnings: Drunk Satoshi Best point: “That would be bad, thought Satoshi, who could practically feel the alcohol rushing through his system by this time. If anyone was going to corner Niwa in a dark area and ravish him, Satoshi would prefer it be himself.” ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/251566/1/ ) Series: DNAngel Title: Deoxyribonucleic Heavenly Figure Author: Summer Sweet Language: English Summary: Well, we're all excited about the D.N.Angel anime, right? But we seem to be forgetting something...for every good anime, there's a really bad dub lurking around the corner... Status: Complete Genre: Humor Pairings: Satoshi/Daisuke Warnings: You’ll laugh so had it’ll hurt Best point: This is what dubs make to perfectly good, healthy anime… ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1202188/1/ ) Series: DNAngel Title: Balance series Author: Macx Larabee Language: English Summary: Too good to describe Status: ongoing series Genre: yaoi, drama, lemonish, very, very romantic Pairings: Dark/Krad, Daisuke/Satoshi Warnings: Check the “balance” series and it’s continuations. Best point: This girl has accomplished the impossible: make me accept Dark/Krad. And we have uke-ish Satoshi! (drools) Oh… what are the odds of finding such a jewel? ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/authors.php?no=15467 ) Series: DNAngel Title: In Search of a Blue Shirt Author: SapphirexKat2 Language: English Summary: Dai/Sato. Satoshi and Daisuke go out shopping for a blue shirt. They have a little too much fun in the dressing room. M/M,Lemon,Yaoi Status: complete Genre: lemon/romance/humor Pairings: Satoshi/Daisuke Warnings: barely a plotline Best point: PWP goodness (http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544173693 ) Series: DNAngel Title: Cooking with With Author: Millennia Language: English Summary: Smut PWP OOC- etc etc - What will Satoshi do with With in the image of Daisuke? (did I mention this was PWP smut?) Satoshi/With Satoshi/Daisuke/With Yaoi, PWP Status: complete Genre: smut/humor/parody Pairings: Hiwatari/With, Hiwatari/Daisuke, Daisuke/With Warnings: Sex Sex Sex- gay Sex! Animal sex! if you are under 18 and somehow missed the previous warning- LEAVE NOW!!! If you read on, and are squicked out, I'm not responsible. Best point: Soo funny….soo pervy… ( http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/story.php?no=544180222 ) Series: DNAngel Title: Yuki Eiri Author: Medea Dracena Language: English Summary: Yuki Eiri keeps a journal. Here's a peek... Status: Complete Genre: Romance/Humor Pairings: Yuki x Shu Warnings: Yaoi. Language. Sexual references. Best point: SO MUCH FUN….. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/844145/1/ ) Series: Xiaolin Showdown Title: Break His Crown Author: EternalFluffy Language: English Summary: Jack Spicer gets his greatest desire- a special portal that takes him to a strange, twisted world where he rules all! But, world domination isn't all it's cracked up to be... (JackxKim in later chapters) Status: Complete Genre: Action/Adventure/Drama Pairings: Kimiko/Jack Warnings: AU, I think. Best point: Fairly IC, but try to abode the sequel. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2168264/11/ ) Series: Fairly odd parents fic Title: A Night on the Town Author: Elera Language: English Summary: When Cosmo and Wanda's date is completely ruined by a pack of their old rivals, and Timmy is forced to deal with enemies of his own, the night provides disaster and discovery for all. COMPLETED. Status: Complete Genre: Humor/Drama Pairings: Cosmo/Wanda, Anti-cosmo/Anti-Wanda, mild Timmy/Tootie, etc Warnings: None that I can think of. Best point: Incredibly IC, credible and heart-warming ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1626816/1/ ) Series: Escaflowne Title: After The Storm Part 2 : With Arms Wide Open Author: Yamchas Big Pants Language: English Summary: Dryden X Milerna Chapter 7 - Milerna has something important to tell Dryden, but so does Allen. Status: Incomplete Genre: Romance/Angst Pairings: Dryden/Millerna centric Warnings: Continuation to the Escaflowne anime. Best point: I love Dryden, so anything where he appears is good to me ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/981626/1/ ) Series: Gargoyles Title: Ronin Author: CSHayden Language: English Summary: A prequelcontinuation of "Tengu", Kirin goes from a clanless wanderer to the unlikely suitor of a carefree thrillseeker. Status: Incomplete Genre: General/Humor/Romance Pairings: Ariana/Kirin Warnings: OC Best point: Anythign this woman writes is GOLD. ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2074705/1/ ) Series: Vandread Title: "Research" Author: Mads Language: English Summary: The first true anime lemon to hit Racewing Productions, sure to send you into spasmodic fits of laughter! On the good ship Nirvana, the resident doctor-slash-prisoner, Duerro, proposes an experiment with the ship's engineer, Parfet--an experiment to fully prove that men and women truly are of one race... Status: complete Genre: humor/romance/lemon Pairings: Duero/Parfet Warnings: Lemon!!! Best point: The first lemon I’ve ever read of these two. My FVORITE pairing on Vandread… (http://racewing.anifics.com/lemonade/research.txt ) Series: Hellsing/PSOH crossover Title: Deed Author: DuchessRaven Language: English Summary: Crossover bt Petshop of Horrors manga and Hellsing. An alternate meeting bt Integra and Alucard. Young and distressed by the illness of her father, Integra happens upon a strange dog in a Chinatown petstore... COMPLETE! Status: complete Genre: AU/Action/Adventure/Drama Pairings: none. I think implied Alucard/Integral, D/Leon, but that’s only my fangirlishness talking. Warnings: Hellsing/PSOH crossover, AU (duh) Best point: I’ve dreamed of a Fanfic on this theme, and lo and behold, it was done, and much better than expected ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2518400/1/ ) Series; Hunter X Hunter Title: A 'Need to Know' Basis Author: Silver Thunder Language: English Summary: Sometimes you just need to hear these things. Killua x Gon Status: complete Genre: General/Romance Pairings: Gon/Killua Warnings: none Best point: IC-ness! FINALLY cocky Killua! ( http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2588347/1/ ) Series: FMA Title: Ripple Effect Author: urplesquirrel Language: English Summary: Later on, Fletcher will think it is ironic how such a small thing has managed to upset the rhythm of years. Status: complete Genre: smutty goodness Pairings: Russell/Fletcher Warnings: not-that-described sex... Best point: Thringhamcest makes me wet my panties ( http://urplesquirrel.livejournal.com/48650.html#cutid1 ) 1agreed to massive suicide| post comment

LOVELY links [23 Apr 2005|11:54pm] [ mood | naughty ] [ music | "lift me up", Moby ] +++++++++++++++++++++++++ I got a livejournal just so I can have the hentai links better organized, so yeah, I'm going back to review fanfic and stuff here. +++++++++++++++++++++++++ Stuff I keep as not to forget it: Cool pages http://www.well.com/user/cynsa/newbutt.html ---> rectal foreign bodies! Oh, don’t give me that look, you want to take a look at those X-rays too! http://www.snopes.com/ ---> urban legends reference pages. Some have AWESOME pics too… this is one of the best pages when you are bored out of your mind… http://www.rotten.com/ ---> I’m a sick, sick person. http://www.somethingawful.com/ ---> I have a friend...who reminds me so much of this page http://web.archive.org/web/20060207151625/http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/25129912/ ---> Wayback machine~ Stuff that interests me http://www.dracoandginny.com/ ---> yes, I am a Draco/Ginny shipper, got a problem with that? http://community.livejournal.com/hyugacest/272296.html#cutid1 ---> Neji/Hina interestingness. http://forums.narutofan.com/showthread.php?t=17357 ---> MOAR Nejihina-ness http://community.livejournal.com/hyugacest/272451.html?#cutid1 ---> nejihinaaa http://www.snake.ne.jp/~sss/ ---> AMAZING Harry potter fan art. http://amgc.gargoyles-fans.org/index2.html ---> adult monthly gargoyles contest… oh my… http://www.restrictedsection.org/ ---> Some serious awesome ADULT Harry potter fan fiction archive, any pairing. http://www.utdallas.edu/~hxc034100/abart.html ---> Girl from DA that draws Harry Potter cartoons like GOD. http://www.angelfire.com/anime4/spike558/ ---> vandread libary... I NEED to find this story... http://www.livejournal.com/community/shukaku_kyubi/ --->This community is for fans of Naruto, Gaara, and their demons. http://www.livejournal.com/community/gaanaru/?skip=40 ---> The Gaara x Naruto Fanfic Community http://www.foodsubs.com/ ---> Cooks thesarus http://www.squidge.org/housefanfiction/s_index.html ---> House fanfiction archieve... paradise for Wilson/House and Cuddy/House shippers like me! Explanations and shit http://www.theringworld.com/ ---> BEST “the ring” page. Everything from every movie, manga, novel, etc. http://boards.ign.com/Message.aspx?topic=50229573&replies=18 ---> THE explanation of the timelines in Resident Evil! Random http://breakfast.itgo.com/freaktest.html ---> the 419 freak test. I have my reasons to keep it around. http://yuugiou.fran-web.net/Image/Otogi/ ---> Otogi Ryuji page with screenshots. VERY random, just because I like his design and know I will forget his name and never find the page again, so it’s just as not to loose it. http://www.frontiernet.net/~MrSeagull/ ---> Windbear and Oceanbird. (Mandark and Lalavava’s parents, for pic references… there AREN’T any other pic of them in the net.) http://photobucket.com/albums/y119/jbshell/xiaolinshowdown/season1/ ---> Xiaolin Showdown screenshots… Believe it or not, these are much harder to find than what you might think… http://robkelk.ottawa-anime.org/meganekko/ ---> most know about my fetish with anime girls wearing glasses, so this is nothing short of heaven for me *¬* tp://www.armory.com./tests/purity.html ---> Purity tests, funness! http://prillalar.com/drabbles/ ---> You can laugh for hours with this.... http://onlineconversion.com/cooking_gasmark.htm ---> FINALLY somethign to tell me the difference between the numbers and the oven heat! http://www.isketch.net/ ---> addictive! Livejournal funness for meh http://community.livejournal.com/beyond_gates/ http://community.livejournal.com/tringhamhappy/ http://community.livejournal.com/tringhamcest/ http://community.livejournal.com/blondpile http://community.livejournal.com/russellxed/ http://community.livejournal.com/lol_porn/ http://community.livejournal.com/edwardxedward/ http://velvet-mace.livejournal.com/95241.html#cutid1 post comment

Im back! [07 Nov 2004|07:33pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Dragostea din tei! ] Stuff to say... 1)I PASSED THE FRIGGING ZDP!! 2) I like this guy... he is rather chubby, and doesnt know I exist! 3) From now on, Im going to use this account to store kweeln fanfiction... YA fer meh! 9agreed to massive suicide| post comment

guess what happened? [07 Mar 2004|09:02pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | "Vodoo", By God Smack ] [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<felt [...] that,>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] You see ... The other day I had to come back at 11 in the night in a train. I only had 5 minutes to run from a train to take the oter. I ran, saw the train that came and asked a guy that was comming out of it if it was the train I needed. he barely spared me a glance and said "yes, yes" So I got in the train and sat. It was deserted, but that wasnt so strange at that hour, and i figured out people would enter in a few seconds. But time passed and NO-ONE entered. So I started freaking out. And then I panicked. When I started picking up my stuff, the train started moving. I was in a train that wasnt the one I needed, that was going to God-knows-where and there was no-one in there to help me. I considered pulling the emergency brakes but was too scared and decided to look for whoever drived the goddamned machine and see if they could help me. There was no one. And then...the train stopped...So I grab my stuff open the door and jump in the middle of the dark, landing in the rails and trying to remember if the things conducted electricity or not. and I couldnt remember. So, I look at my watch and guess what? Only two minutes had passed. That you could translate as two hours of hell, but still! I had three minutes to go back o the train station and take the train. I could do it sure, I got eight place in a running competition, sure i could... Or thats what i tried to tell myself. Only half a mile to the station, in the middle of the dark, with things that I was still unsure that could fry me or not. So i ran...and fell, and fell, and fell, down a hill full of little stones and the only thing I could think was "please dont let me die". The thing is, I stopped and I sat...totally amazed Gods hue sense of irony didnt icluded me breaking aleg/arm/spine, stared at my watch, i still had one freaking minute, so I crawled back to the rail and ran, made it, climbed to the goddmaned station and stood there, panting And the minute passed And the train didnt come you know why? because I was in the wrong hangar so I yust stay there, thinking that the karmic equilibriom just HAD to be restored a some point by Gods infinite wisedomm and irnony, panting like if I was having a seizure (am not sure i wasnt having one) and three black guys that looked like getho, pimps or something come over and asks em whats wrong. So I tell them I lost the goddamned train and they offered me their cellphones, and i thanked them, but I couldnt accept it because it wouldnt reach the house. Because here have "fashionable" cellphones here (Germnay), you know? Goddamned piece of crap called "handy" that works with a goddamned card that doesn´t lets you call in another country....You need to buy a special one...Piece eof crap they are. So i run inside and find a public phone....buut...guess wha? No change. Wont get into details on my chai of toughts regarding God, karmic retributon and the IRONY in the universe. Soooo, in a very patriotic gesture I sart kicking the public phone and repeating "No, la puta madre, no hijo de mil puta, no, la concha de tu hermana, no INFELIZ!!" Aaaaaand a guy comes over and asks me whats wrong. Nice guy, he told me to calm down and offered me some coffe (No, i didnt took the coffe) So I told him what was happening (german was beyond my hability at that point and he barely could make out english.) But in the end he got I needed money to call in the phoene and he gave me a handfull of coins and just left. I tried o give him some cash, but he refused He also said soemething in the lines of "I hope everything turn ok for you, Im sorry i have to leave but my train is here" That or he offered me more coffe. Anyway, I call...and did I mention german was beyond me at that point? Guess what, spent almost all my money trying to get the father of the family (Manfred) to understand what had happened. In the end I tell him "just give me with Christoph!" who had just come in the house, and I explain to him what happened, they tell me not to worry Instead of answerin soemthing regarding God, irony and many strong adjectives, I hang up. So I sorta stay there, still panting lie if I had run the fucking marathon <felt like that, too> and I see a guy at the end of the hallway, with a bunch of luggage <like f he was to go camping or soemthing> and he was sitting there, readinga book. So I approach him <8 minutes had passed and they (the famly) havent called, figured the number i gave them was wrong> and told him what had happened, then ask him for help, he gets up and tries to take me to the station ...staff...thing-place...but it was closed already, so he starst looking at the train map and figures out another train I can take, and I aks him to go with me to wait for it, because I dont want to be alone in the station,a nd he say, sure. So turns out his name was Mark, was 21 yeras old and on hsiway to the army (here you either do communitary service or the army when you are 21)´. He was a cutie too, need to write him a letter. 20 minutes later the guys from the station come and tell me <the guy, Mark, translated it for me> they had received a call from my house (from the family that i am living with in here), ask for the ticket and they tell me "no problem", and that I have to take another train in half an hour So i stay there, talking with Mark and hen the train comes. And I leave. And then i got sick from all the cold air and the bad breathing i did when i was running (My sport teacher must be laughing in her coffin, i swear) And thats what happened to em two weks ago...and the fist thing i have written in too long. Hope you liked it, i certainly didnt...but its soemthing to tell your grandchildren, i guess. 4agreed to massive suicide| post comment

The story of the Wizard and the Fairy [14 Dec 2003|01:42am] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | La historia del mago y el hada, Rata blanca ] This is one of my favourite old Rata Blanca songs EVER after "Loving woman"...You REALLY shoudl listen to it...sure, it´s in spanish..but it sounds great...and it´s fast and rock-like and it sounds AWESOME...anyway, here are the lyrics... THE STORY OF THE WIZARD AND THE FAIRY by Rata Blanca Tells the story that one day in his enchanted forest a wizard cried Because despite his magic he couldn´t find love The moon, his only friend gave him strenght to be able to stand all the pain he felt because his long loneliness is that he knew very well that in his existance he never should go out of his destiny If someone has to love you you will know it you just will have to recognize it It was one afternoon that the wizard walking around in the forest found his gaze with the sweetest gaze that in his life he had ever met Since that very moment the fairy and the wizard wanted to be alone both of them in the forest loving eachother always and in every place And the evil that always existed couldn´t stand so much hapiness between two beings and with his hate he attacked until the faeiry fall in that fatal dream of not feeling In his castle spent the nights the wizard trying to be able to find the power to bring back to his faery ,his love, the sweet gaze of yesterday and he didn´t stopped since then looking for a way to get back the woman that that day in the middle of the forest finally he could love and today he knows what love is and will have the strenght to stand that spell, he knows that someday he will see his sweet faery come and forever with him will stay post comment

Shit happens [12 Dec 2003|09:14pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Tourniquet, Evanescence ] Have you ever wanted to grab a shotgun and use it in all your family? I have. My dad just came home with the credit card i am going to use when i go to germany. Don´t ask me how, but it all ended in disaster. My mum called my dad "necio". i can´t remember it´s translation right now, but it means something close to "stubborn". From that on everything went downhills. He screams, you know? he screams so much. So loud. and i just stay there, calmed. Looking calmed, but my heart hurts, beats too fast and i wonder how can i act so calmed, talk so softly when all i want to do is pull my hair and scream. Why do i have to be the one to pull them apart? He pushed my mother. My mother is right, he has no right to do that kind ot things. To scream like that, to push around like that. I always try to see things in perspective, but it´s hard to be imparcial when your mother is involved. A Son always turns out defending his mother, and I guess thats more true whent the child happens to be female as well. I know he is short tempered, and he shouldn´t take those thinsg so hard, like if they were real... i mean... Me and my friends call eachother names all day and we don´t fight about it. we say that because we trust eachother and know deep down that we never mean it. It´s just that... he is old, you know? he is really old. Not phisically... he is 54 but he acts..no, thinks much older than that. he is straight from the time where the woman staid home taking care of the children and obeys the husband... I really don´t know how my mother can stand it. I fight it. In my own way...but i always back away in the end because he hurts them. I just get so mad...I can´t stop myself when I´m like that. When I´m like that the only thing I can think about is "i wasnpt made for this..." And i wasnpt. i wasn´t made to back away, to bow my head and mindlessy agree. I...don´t knwo what else to say... Sorry for bugging you...but I had to take this out of my chest... post comment

Hunted [20 Nov 2003|10:02am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Everybody´s fool ] She just started being my soul. Wich she still is, so... I´ve been thinking naming her (when alive) Hannah. It´s a preety name and can be changed to Hunted. I just need a last name now. Well, so far the oh-so-originall story is: Once upon a time there was this 16 year old girl, who wasn´t especially unpopular, especially preety or especially unhappy. She had good parents that maybe worked a bit too much, a younger sister she loved even if she sometimes was a bitch, a group of friends that cared for her, even if she felt they stabbed her in the back more than once. Your common brown eyed, brunette girl with a thing for angsting and silver and black thingies. Yeah. But this girl was sick of it. Sick of going to skool, of having to study, to face stupid ppl, feel alone, not understood and stuff. So she started cutting herself. Not because she was especially fond of it, just because she sometimes felt like killing somebody, and like she was an extremely guiltish person, she decided that self-hurting was better to a life in jail feeling guilty. So yeah, anyway, one day the razor she was using in the tub slipped a bit too far, she didnt´noticed and died. Anyway, like all ppl that kill themeselves she went to hell, who is run either by a hot guy in his late 20 or a little kid, can´t make my mind about it. Well, the thing is he has a daughter he had with a nun in the world up there and it´s her birthday. She has to start using her powers to find demons, and needs something like a bodyguard. So he gives her Hannah. Well... Hannah was having quite a good tiem in hell. Well, not really, but you can´t angst very well if you are concentrated in the mental and phisic pain, so she wanted to go down there again. So, the first demon that attacked her and the half-demon struck Hannah with a truck and killed her. Again. Satan wasn´t happy. So he tells Hannah she will have to do it anyway, wanting it or not and turns her into some sort of Zombie and sends her back to earth. Hannah isn´t happy about it, and kills the demon not exactly in porpuse, but because she was mad and the guy was bugging her. The next morning the demon chick wakes up to find Hannah is a mutilated bloody mess and wakes her up, explaining that as her slave she can still feel pain, just that it can´t kill her. The wounds will heal at the same rate humans ones do, and no matter how much blood she looses, she won´t die. Also completely destroying her body won´t do any good because she will come back with it fully restored. Later, she recives a gift from hell: A mask. Kinda like the smiling one in Theathers, but more creepy-looking. There is a note. Something in the lines of "slay the demons and you can die again". She says "yeah, sure" sarcastically. But the mask accepts it as a promise (yeah, the damn thing is alive) and enslaves her to do it, calling her a Hunted soul, to what the demon girl gleefully says that her name then shoudl be "Hunted". Hannah smashes the mask against the demon girl and goes to jump from a building or something. When she wakes up she is in the middle of a forest where a bunch of punks and goths were messing with voddoo. They kinda think she is a dark goddess or something and give her a ride to the demon chicks department (it´s not liek she had anywhere else to go, and the demon girl had preety good CD´s in her home and a TV). Anyway, she starts feeling sick and the demon chick tells her that no she has been altered to slay these rebel demons and like she isnt doing it, the mask is punishing her, so she grabs a black marker and writes in the front of the mask "Everybody´s fool" and decides to hunt the demons, because she has nothing better to do. Later she meets a goth kid that tells her he is an angel sent by God to help her. What do you think Hunted does? Thank him? (would you thank him?) Jump over him and start strangling him an banging his head againts the wall. She doesn´t wants God´s help right now and flips off the guy. That´s all I have come with for now... some pics I´ve already done... Hannha when alive. He rline of tought at least. After dead she can´t express her emotions in anguish like this easily... she kinda chnages them to things she can deal with: anger and apathy-with a good dela of sarcasm-. http://www.deviantart.com/view/2863350/ Hunted deep in tought after comming back from a fight. http://www.deviantart.com/view/2991775/ Hunted in her free-time. She usually skips skool (yeah she is back in skool because the demon chick wanted to torture her a bit mroe, but she kind alikes to mess with hunted and like sher enaugh to let her skip sometimes) and stays listenting to depressing music and looking at the roof or other dinamic things in those lines (she doenspt lieks moving too much) http://www.deviantart.com/view/3063544/ other of the many times she boke the mask. http://www.deviantart.com/view/3063748/ She knows the mask controlls her. http://www.deviantart.com/view/3348892/ Under the masks grasp. She has freaky nightmares with it. This is one of them. http://www.deviantart.com/view/3448640/ 2agreed to massive suicide| post comment

Now... some art. [20 Nov 2003|09:36am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | the 9th song of Evanescence. Holding my last breath? ] I´ve been meaning to show off soem art... show ti to oggy, I mena, cuz she is the only oen that reads this piece of crap (Kicks deadjournal) This oen is Invader Zim a la Utena. My first serious pic in IZ style. For the secodn try in Jhonens style ti turned out quite well.... http://www.deviantart.com/view/2858726/ Typicall day inside my mind. Featuring Xellos´, Arimi and Zel´s relationship. http://www.deviantart.com/view/2996177/ My fucking awesome chinese boots. Bow to them! http://www.deviantart.com/view/2991615/ Next entry will deal with what I´ve been working with lately... Hunted. your asshole. What swear word are you? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

It´s been a while and I don´t feel like writing... [20 Nov 2003|09:14am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Tourniquete ] Okay... Today I won{t be able to make you happy because... i don{t feel happy either... I was ñeft thinking in what you sayd about hapyness... and soemthing i have been thinking lately.... and the truth is.. we aren´t meant to be happy. So I´m just going to be posting old stuff i wrote jjust so I can play lots of quizzillas test and be happee... Heh tesis about Happyness: See... actully we have never been happy and never will be. Of course, you might be thinking right now "Oh, but I USED to be happy.... once... maybe... years ago" No, you just think you were happier before... At the same moment we start having concious tought, the happyness dissapears from our reach. All those happy memories? well..they aren´t happy, you just THINK they are happy because you are more unhappy now. Yeah, that´s right. Isolation. Just leave you alone. You can be found in a dark place, rotting in your own self pity. After all, no one else understands, right? How do you deal with your depression? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

I had a dream last night.... [05 Oct 2003|07:35pm] [ music | "Baila Morena", maná ] [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<for [...] hair,>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] It was about Cat. And it was WEIRD. For one thing, she was red-haired. And with freckles.. and shorter than me. <for what I can tell from her photo, she has dark blonde/brown hair, and seems to be taller too> I was in Skool (No, I won’t stop spelling it that way, it ROKZ!) feeling suicidal, when this girl appears in front of me. Girl: Hi, I’m Cat (looking unsure) Me: O_o Cat? Girl: (nods) Me: MY Cat? Girl: (nods again) Me: What are you doing here? Cat: Uhm... I decided to come... you said you wouldn’t mind so... Me: Sure, I don’t! ^___^ Cat: Good ^__^ Me: So, you are staying in my home? Cat: yeah Me: Great! I don’t wanna stay at skool anymore, let’s go home. So we left skool randomly talking about how anime had rotten our brain because we found yaoi in things that weren’t even SUPOSSED to give a hint of it. In my way home we found a guy selling strawberries, and I asked Cat if she wanted, and she shrugged, so I decided to buy them, but I didn’t had enough money, so Cat offered to pay half of it, so we left, with a BIG bag of strawberry’s, holding it between us and randomly picking up some and eating them. When we got home I told mum Cat had came from USA and was going to stay with us and she asked her what did she wanted to eat, and cat said she wanted to have pasta, so mum started making some while be both went upstairs (still with the strawberries) and randomly popped in my bed, and we started watching one of my Pet shop of Horrors movie when Cat decided to rest her had in my lap and I thought it was funny, because we were always doing that in internet and we started laughing, when the phone started ringing. I picked it up and it was Cat’s father. He was mad because Cat had left her home without saying where she was going (wonder how did he got the address, then) and wanted her to come back, so cat gets all sad and I start crying. And then I woke up. Freaky. I WANT CAT TO COME HOME! Just...please tell your parents where you are going first. <br><a href=http://www.planetdreamcast.com/psoworld/quiz1.php><img src=http://www.planetdreamcast.com/psoworld/images/quizes/HUcaseal.jpg border=0><br>I am a HUcaseal to know what you are take the quiz here.</a><br> 2agreed to massive suicide| post comment

Mum foudn out [14 Sep 2003|11:01pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | My toughts..they´re really loud tonight. ] Mum saw the scars. Let´s all rejoice now. Or not. I was washing my hair, kay? and then mum comes in. and the sadistic part of me (meet Chain, minna!)said "Let her see. it would be nice she noticed for once that soemthing is not going on right with you" and i keep washing my hair trying to show off the wrist as much as possible. After futile 15 min attempts she STILL hasn´t seen them, and my intelligent part. (please, let me introduce Creator)said "She won´t see it. It´s no use. hide it." And so i did. 5 seconds later my mum saw the scars. and the three me's were: "You must be joking, right?" and so, it begun. Half an hour later my mum KEPT talking. a few things i remember from the talk: "obviously I am not making any good for you" "and you shoudl start participing in plays or something, I almost believe your act" "Obviously you are trying to get my attention" she even manaced me getting me away from my therapyst... she can´t do that, I love Nelly. I know she seems like a bitch here, but she was worried. Let me explain myself: This scars? are because I failed. There is a law I´ve made. ALL in this world is reduced to two truths: Failure and punishment. You fail. you have to be punished. Now I know it sounds ridiculous. But that´s the way i think. I also think the desition is yours. You can´t be punished by anybody else. YOU need to punish yourself. Otherwise, the failure isn´t accepted. I failed, i had to be punished. and My stupid parents just don´t get I am under a lot of pression and i need to BE LEFT ALONE. is that so much to ask? I mean...Let me explain: The skool manages a trip to germany every year, right? and I need to go. My parent´s already paid for it. and i keep failing and failing and FAILING. and if I don´t go, they would have lost all the money... I want to kill myself when i think of that. I don´t even want to go there.I just go because the bastards keep repeating "It will be a good thing for you and blah blah blah blah." what i understand from it? "We want you to go because we couldn´t do it when we were your age" well, I´ve got news for you, bastards: I HAVE DIFFERENT DREAMS THAT YOURS, AND THEY DON´T INCLUDE GOING TO GERMANY. provably the only fucking reason i accepted it was to be abñe to meet Jussy. You know wich is my problem? i care too much. too much about how other´s feel, and what others think of me and about the OTHERS. and you knwo what else? I HATE the others. I´m always hearing the whispering and trying not to tear their faces up for being such fake monsters, but hey, that´s how life is... Sometimes I get this huge lump in my throath when I´m the center of attention. because then i can READ in their faces what they think of me. Things in the lines of: "what is she trying to prove?" "why is she so weird?" "Why can´t she be like anybody else?" "Why is she always alone?" "i wonder if she ever tried to kill herslef?" Well, fuckers, if you want to know so desperately.. YES, yes I did tried to kill myself, and know what? i wish i had the guts to finish it all back then, and i wouldn´t be suffering right now. But nooo... I had to think avout how the idiots of my parents would feel and stuff. I´m really tired. Sometimes all that keeps me from really taking that step is knowing that someday i might find someoen thats´there for me... Because i always feel like if I´m there for them, and then I´m used up and thrown away. No wait... I am. Now they know and life will suck even more. so, like I was saying...lets all rejoice. Artistic Cutter Blood and cutting is your art. When you can't get the lines right for your masterpiece, you totally freak out. Luckily, you can just start over on the plenty of other skin you've got left. Your body is literally a canvas. Good for you! Good Song For You- Fiona Apple- Criminal Good Movie- Girl Interrupted What kind of cutter are you? brought to you by Quizilla 2agreed to massive suicide| post comment

Life is wonderful! [13 Sep 2003|12:23am] [ mood | pessimistic ] [ music | "Going under", Evanescense ] Wonderful... as wonderful as rolling in broken glass. Let´s recapitulate. Cat isn´t here. It´s my second day of period. I look like a walrus. I feel like a whale. I didn´t pass Biology. I keep carving stuff in my wrists. This tiem it says "Failure". No, i don´t like it, no, I don´t enjoy it. I just feel I need to do it. No one notices. I want to die. i hate my life. I can`t do anything right. The DJ looks weird and I cna´t fidn the old thingie that said how to post messages. I want to shot someone. Me. There isn´t a suicidal mood to use. Thsi si a fucking deadjournal, there shodul be. I can´t write nything but angst. I am non loved by my freinds, and I´m afraid I might be asexual. I have a few crushes, but I don´t joke when i say they last less than a day. I wish I could understand myself. I´ve been doing angsty art. it looks good. sadly, the scanner only wakes when it wants to... I have created a new chara, i will describe her as soon as i have a clearer image of her. By now, the only thing I know si that her name is Rebecca, and that she is a normal human. Self-destruction Which Life Stage Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ... how about both? 3agreed to massive suicide| post comment

Devinart! [30 Aug 2003|07:59pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | "Te quiero dar" Natalia Lafourcade ] i have a Devinart account! yay! if i only knew how to use photoshop Y___Y PPl comes and says "yeah, you just look around in the program and you?ll learn to use it by yourself..." Learn my ASS. Last time I entered there...Let?s just say evil little black unidentifiable icons will haunt me for the rest of my life. I love having ppl telling me they like my work.... I love going to drawing lessons...I love life! Now lest?s just way for me to start brooding, meanwhile enjoy the mindlessy happy Yuta I?ve been thinking in cat coming here.... I WANNA IT! I sure am sared she will get freked out by me... My glomping habits...not exactly a shy person... or too shy in other matters....crazy...siko...BUT I LOVE HER! having her here woudl eb so grt...The truth is that I?m afraid my nervous and constant babbling would tire her up.... Take the "How Do You Use Magic?" test! Written by Brimo post comment

Cachanka, que dure, cnchanca, que dure... [17 Aug 2003|10:11pm] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | "el viejo de arriba" Bersuit Vergabat ] Right now I am oh so happy... u know why? i found a writing of mines i did around two years ago, aroudn the time i first attempted to kill myself (now don?t starst fussing, What i did was so small I don?t even have a scar)I still haven?t changed what i toguht about it... to sum it up LIFE SUCKS AND THE WORLD IS DISASTER, AND THERE IS NO HOPE. Apparently i am very fodn to those topics... not right now, cuz I?m talking to cat, who i love and adore above all things (you too jussy-dear!) what can I talk about now... I could talk about the noodles. They rock. LONG LIFE TO THE RAMEN! Done. Anyway, what else could I talk bout? weeeeeeelll.... lesse... Somehow I ended up having a girlfriend by mail... it?s a girl that has a gilfriend in the real life, and I know that girl too (know from e-mailing,mind you, not person-to-person) anyway, i really don?t understand that "media mail relationship... it?s just like a friendship, just that they write they are kissing me. Wich is weird and amkes me blush, cuz despite all the impure things i do/say (real life too) I?m actually a very shy person... (as a side coment, with nothing to do with the topic, all ,my skirts are feet-lenght... i only have a REALLY old one made of jean that is knee high... i ONCE had a miniskirt when i was ten. Loved it. But now i don?t love them anymore...I love my long dresses... another thing i am usually told is how I wear nun-outfits while use really kinky underwear. I don?t think it is kinky, but hey, that?s what my girl friends say... i think my underwear rocks!) Look, ended up talking about my fashion sense ... me and my off-topic... Have I ever told you i got kicked out of a club? i think i did... it was about a girl called Harukami, she did it so people could comment on her writings. I starsted babbling nonsense and she kicked me out. it hurt. So I used a phantom adress to join the club again. Actually the place sucks. I had less people in my club, and they talked A LOT MORE than they did in hers. You know what hurt of that? that she never told me she had kicked me out. i had to enter with the other adress only to find out she had written a mail saying that she was sorry, but my behaviour was unnacceptable. In other order of problems, those girl i mentioned? the own that said si my e-girlfreidn? well, they own a club, a slayersRPG. i liked it and started it, but just like the other oen i had joined it bored me off... might have soemething to do with the fact I still am in the middle of a particuallry painful writer?s block (in one hand i have all these fabulous ideas, in the other, every tiem i start to write, they start to look stupid. Oh well) I also have started writing about SS-stuff, but can?t get anything out too nicely. I write, but don?t like what i write. i?ll wait a few days more, then if i keep staying still, I?ll seimply post what i wrote. The problem with me is that i don?t like to write stupid things... and in the end all i write seems to end up looking stupid (exepting a very nice paragraph (JUST a pargraph)of a particuallry depressive and suicidal Zel/Xell fic)I reeeeeeally liked that one. Yeah, the one i posted here. Ooother thing that bothers me is that i can?t help but torture the characters. I am wortking SO hard to get out a nice fic that supossedly is a nice G rated, ne? NOOOO, not with me... I was oh so happy thinking that what i wrote was actually in the lines of nice, when my sister reads and says "But Viii"(she calls me like that) "Why is this guy so unhappy? and why is this one so twisted? and why doens?t she just admits she likes him instead of going on and on torturing herlself with it? and Why si Zim so DEPRESSIVE?" (I made Zim a depressive maniac! i am oh so twisted) I really hate when that happens... but apparently Chain and Creator are stronger than what I tought... little bitches control my writing. Oh well.. I?ll try to make it the less despressive posible... But it bores me and scares me and makes me want to kill myself. Oh, and the other day i had to write a single paragrph of love poetry. I ended up doing it, then writing a five paragraph about how muh i hated it... i don?t remember very well what was ir about... but the it was in the lines of "Pink poetry makes me sick all those sickening rhymes and sweet things after having my mind broken i just wish i could slice my wrists open" Yeah, i?m working in the rhyming part as well...I like it. it still sucks but the skool loves it. They just keep bugging me with writing less depresive stuff, and i keep telling them i try, but it eventually it ends up all.. angsty.So this professor comes and starts changing what i write, then smiles at me with her freakingly huge theeth and smiles "doesn?t this looks better?" adn I get all "sorry, Mis baqueros, but i really liekd it the way it was before... can?t we just keep it that way" and she goes "But it?s less depressive this way" and i say "But... thsi isn?t what i wrote" well, to sum it up, I ended up really and, and refused to have my work in the skool paper anymore. Joy. Which monkey are you? Another pointless diversion from Bijouriel Look at this... a quizz that for once is right about me... That and i managed to corrupt Nun-boy a bit more... will wonders never cease? post comment

Carving in my flesh how hopeless I am [04 Aug 2003|08:53pm] [ mood | determined ] [ music | "bring me to life" ] There goes the "H" Strange, i never tought this woudl hurt so little. The needle is hard to use, my flesh is too smooth to be able to press it, it?s just matter of dig slightly the pin, then draw whatever I want, and pass the pin oer it, until the skin is raw. The "O" is finished. My geaography exam sucked, i got a two. It?s like an F in USA, i think.... A small O and a stick make the "P" Tought briefly of jumping in front of a car, but I was walking with my sister, so i decided against it. Too messy. A small O and a stick make the "P" There is a gun in My father?s closet. Just press it against my temple and shoot. painless. Short. A stick and three lines more "E" This is a stupid word. It needs more letters to fullfill it?s purpuse. look at it now won?t be good, won?t be of any use. To continue, lets add an "L" better. It starst stinging, I?ll just drop some soda over it to stop it from getting infected. The needle falls from my hands and I can?t find it. I reach to my desk for another one, it was getting disgusting anyway, the bloody one smelled like copper. Another "E" My parents (both of them) are going to talk to the bitch tomorrow. I don?t know hom much did I lied to them, but I hope it turns out all right... Almost finsihed, an "S" It?s alluring. there isn?t much blood, and the red skatches are lovely. Like a little child I lick the wound and smile at myself for stinging. I am not a person who relishes in pain, but this isn?t about pain. It?s about a law I made: Failure and punishment. It?s about the rightness. I failed, I need to be punished. I tought a poem today. "When my prays aren?t heard and there?s nothing left to beg for I wonder What to do to be heard What to do to be seen. Maybe if carve it in my own flesh And write with my own blood Someone will realize I am here." The final "S" If not... The gun is still in the closet. 2agreed to massive suicide| post comment

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